And then I got talked OUT of it, by consistent arguments that it wouldn’t be a strong direction, character-wise. That they wouldn’t be confident enough in their audience to make such a swing at the core 4 and trust that they wouldn’t abandon. I said “Hey, yeah, but that’s the POINT, that like…. It is TERRIBLE, it’s literally self destructive, it’s causing self-harm, not healing, it’s crushing not building.” I said that if they actually followed through I’d want to kiss the showrunners. And like…
My heart, it hurts. I feel hollow. I feel just… I’m a broken woman.
I want to kiss the showrunners.
I am SO sick of pulled punches, I am SO sick of teasing, these fucked up losergirls are playing with knives, and they, better than anyone, know that people get hurt. Let them get hurt. Let the consequences hurt.
one thing thats crazy in yellowjackets is in summertime the lake was joy it was release it provided drinking water and cleanliness and sustenance. “dreams” by the cranberries is playing. but then it’s winter and the lake’s frozen over and it almost provides food but then it takes it away. and then later it provides food by killing one of them. the wilderness provides but it has a price.
God I am like so obsessed with Natalie, like this is a female character with traits you normally associate with men. She moves like Keith Richards with this very masculine swagger. Her hair is never brushed. She isn’t pretty when she smiles- she’s SCARIER. She does hard drugs. She ugly cries. Her kindness always has blades on it. She never let go of her punk phase from childhood. She was the most rational sane one in the wilderness and was the only one who didn’t decide to become an facsimile of a perfect ideal of apple pie wholesomeness to hide the fact that something broke in her. She’s haggard looking, especially compared to the other girls so she’s actually wearing her trauma instead of pretending it isn’t there. She’s the kindest of all of them and yet she’s meaner than a snake on the outset. She is the only sane woman and copes with it with drugs and suicidal idealization.
She is a feral goblin of a woman and she is SO COOL. I love her. Most character ever.
